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Hope This Gives You Hell

2008-10-14T04:35:27Z

[DIAMOND CUTS.] trial uno.

2007-11-29T08:12:20Z

i hope this works (agh now i'm having second thoughts of blogging two
places at once)what's the use? -_-

a_sstarhh @ 2007-11-29T01:43:00

2007-11-28T17:43:32Z

otanjoubi omedetou taguchi-kun! ((:

Once.

2007-11-28T13:48:55Z

ahh jeeez, i seriously need to update here sometimes -_-"

i love my lj alot (HAHA this sounds funny), but the fact that:

everytime i post my lagging entries, it floods someone else's friend page &i don't like knowing that my personal life is showing up as flooding spam to another person.
the layout stinks
my friends are mostly on blogger
i can't crosspost to my facebook♥ (i think)

urges me to not update here too often.
well, atleast not on public entries bcause i do update melancholy, emotional entries privately once in a while. you know those kinds that make you laugh your bloody ass off once you read it while you're "in the mood" (that sounded as if i was horny, &no, i wasn't =_=")

it has been a few weeks since my school break. i certainly don't miss the usual classes, my nagging teachers &those sarcastic ones but i miss sitting around in the school canteen while listening to others crap/blab/curse/boast/shout/bitch-ing around. i really do. so far, i have just indulged these days off with shopping, shopping, shopping for books, but not reading. yet. i think. my parents are not having days off from their usual hectic "bandar-life" &my mum is away till mid-december to places &i just can't keep track. next week would be singapore &when she's back, we'll be off to pangkor. at last! i have been looking forward to a holiday by the beach for far too long already. i am also dying to go to jonker street, malacca since the last time we went, it was the tengkujuh season so we weren't able to get around much.

besides that, i am also feasting myself with instant packed food daily, &i have had the same dish cooked everyday for 3 days in a row. my maid must be thinking that i've gone mad -__-" other than that, i am currently watching the anime series, kodocha! which seem to be really humorous. i sleep at the weirdest times these days &i really need to change that before my face starts growing stufs &making me have one w/ the texture of like a lizard's (holy shit). oh &the weather seems to be really mad these days &i get nose bleeds because of that. whtf? i also am having terrible skin allergies right now, maybe because i am not going outdoors enough these days -_- &i bet i'll be going to khidmat negara next year so yay for skin allergies &nose bleeds! aghh.

it's been long since i've updated my blogger as well bcause i've been buy dloading videos, &doing other random stufs. i need to get a christmas card ready asap before i start giving up &telling myself "i'll make a better one next year" like i did during the previous one. so yes, that is what i am going to do now! it's 10 &the night is still young! wa ha ha ha ha. the hell. oh &i've also found out that my friends do actually check out my blogger once in a while to read my post. &a few weeks back, i was being absolutely silly by giving a friend my link telling her to read my post on hot dudes when the one before was an entry featuring her being dissed at. lucky thing, i diss her funnily often in class. i've also realised that i am ulitmately vulnerable to google aghhhh till then! ♥

a_sstarhh @ 2007-10-22T17:50:00

2007-10-22T09:57:14Z

i like how the timestamps are now (:
i can't find a good way to cross post between here and blogger so i will keep trying to look for a good one =_="
i am still having my examinations but no sciences or calculations tomorrow so i am giving myself some time off (as if i actually lack that)
raya was alright but it makes me feel bad seeing everyone so loaded with cash while i am flat broke after spending a fortune on what people would call crap.

all posts will be made on blogger, simply because i like there better ((:
it still bugs me though since my old link isn't working anymore since someone is using it but that someone seems to be me, except that i don't remember double posting into such accounts :S &my name is said to be WZXYUEzys. technological crap. urghh

Diamonkkyu

*i actually forgot to link it =_=" oh well, need to read some bahasa melayu literature crap. byee

a_sstarhh @ 2007-10-06T20:00:00

2007-10-06T12:02:27Z

i've re-editted everything (sortof) &made them no longer friends-only.
i don't plan to move back here from blogger. i don't blog much anymore. i'm too attached to facebook.
i am in need of cash to pay for my cdjapan &local indie album orders.
i shouldn't have ordered everything during exam month since it's difficult for me to arrange meet-ups.

conclusion - i am just as screwed as i was when i left livejournal.

p.s back posts are a little embarrassing (for some), but who cares. it is the past after-all :D

a_sstarhh @ 2007-08-12T15:09:00

2007-08-12T07:10:46Z

i have moved back to my old blogger.

here(:
might still blog here on randomgandums, but posting there daily since i like the layout better :B

see yah! (:

a_sstarhh @ 2007-06-07T17:04:00

2007-06-07T09:05:24Z

i feel like starting a new blog, hoping that with a new one i could start fresh with a new life. i don't think i have screwed up much, but i could've done better. i still owe a few dollars to that girl who will be selling me the yamapi stufs but i don't owe her it unless she has given me the stufs but i promised to pay asap so i don't know what that makes me. i spent quite alot on dvds of yamaP of which one doesn't include english or bahasa melayu subtitles and i can't read chinese kanji so. sucks. and i applied for membership at sun comic. come to think of it, i shouldn't have because that would just add up to more excuses on why i should spend my money there. i am pretty screwed when it comes to spending. in over, not more than half a year, i've spent more around 1000 ringgit on stufs of Japan. entertainent stufs, not including facial wash, make up etc etc of which are all from Japan because i somewhat plan to make everything Japanese for my stuf so. sucks. whtvr bye/

a_sstarhh @ 2007-06-01T00:58:00

2007-05-31T17:09:21Z

okayy, so i dont know when i last blogged. i'll write a full recap of what had happened, soon enough.
but right now, i am awfully sick with chesty cough. there isnt much food to eat, since i am laying of carbs and my maid messed up with the refrigerator so we lack of protein and all we have is fast food or typical makanan melayu or chinese from the kedai which would typically be nasi, nasi, kuey tiao, burgers etc etc.

i have no idea how the hell am i to be a vegan in the future =.= i am currently into 30 secs to mars & i've always liked them but its turning into obsession now. yamapi's still in my mind but i dont know, =.=
i am taking these pills but theyre menat to be herbs and they are but i got sick recently and i just started taking those pills but ma says it has nothing to do with me getting sick.

this morning i went for a walk but i couldnt go long because my chesty cough was practically killing me. its 1 am currently and i got into a fight with ma lastnight and somehow i couldnt sleep so, i didnt sleep until after my morning walk. i feel like doing my nails but i cant stand the smell of the chemicals and acetone would kill me. i dont remember the last time i had a proper meal but at the same time i dont remember myself being totally hungry -.- i didnt lay off carbs as strictly as usual because my illness might kill me.

amni's coming back at 4pm soon, now its 1 am. i mentioned that a while ago. and i just killed a bug which i thought was a mosquito -.-

i need to go to sleep and i hate it because my chesty cough hurts more in the morning, and i am out of cough syrup

so yyea bye. will recap more ltr.

a_sstarhh @ 2007-05-22T23:49:00

2007-05-22T15:51:38Z

i dont get how some people live to ruin everything -.-

my gastric juices are killing me. will update later. need to sleep.

a_sstarhh @ 2007-05-20T19:03:00

2007-05-20T11:38:32Z

helloo ^^

i have been tooo busy to blog. been mugging my ass on education & i hope i did well on the previous exams, well, doubt so :S
now that mugging is over, i might as well cut off munching. one thing i've realised about my self is that~ mugging = munching. i wouldn't want to know how much i've gained thanks to daily dose of excess caffeine, and fritters/goreng pisang or pisang goreng 2 or 3 times a week and rice and carbonated drinks and cordial based drinks. bllleeerggh -.- okay so now that exams are over i'm back to the "normal" life of mock debates everyday and i can't wait till octo finals next week :))))) i hope we win also the chance of winning is pretty low since we're amateurs and the other debaters there have been debating for more than 3 years prolly. we've been around for not even close to i :S

i have got notes on history subject to complete some stuffs on chemistry, an overdue biology homework, an accounts test to complete & i don't know what else :S ohh & i went shopping yesterday & i am really happy because i am not broke :D:D, yett -.-
i didn't get myself much, just got dragon ball manga from kino, hello kitty stationaries from kino, hello kitty water bottle, & the jap kino didn't have the latest edition of potato so i'll have to get them to reserve me one -.-" oh & i got myself a doraemon keychain which was cutee but had ugly details and not worth my money -.- and i think that's it ((:

life is okay but i want more money because i wanna splurge on several items like gc's billy martin's chain with a key charm, but that bloody chain costs a fortune because of the bloody shipping price so i doubt i'll be able to get it anytime soon. but it isn't so pretty and i doubt i'll ever wear it, but i like billy alot, well used to ^^ oh & i also want this because it is sooo prettyy and i the colours are really vibrant and niceee. & this, on my birthday or soonerr &i think i will get it because it isn't too expensive, &ma thinks they're adorable too so i can just get her to buy it for me ^^ main reason why i want it : the cute cuppacakes are ADORABLEE & super sweet it makes me wanna cry BWAHAHAH so it'll be sweeter if a friend got it for me not mama -.-, pluss the delivery boys are adorable too hehe, cheaters way of gaining customers. nyiahahaha bleerrkkggh.

in a month's time, my school will be organising hari K, i am looking forward to it because my class have got great plans for it, including selling corn in cups which i like HEHHEHEHEHE and several local artists are coming to perform, najwa's SOO excited about the possibility of andy hitztv stopping by, well he is sorta hoot. hmm

i don't have anymore updates on myself, i got a parcel yesterday of which everyone failed to signed for when the postdude came so i'll have to jog for it tommorow buahahaha -.- it might be the yamapi file or something from a penpal or if not, a mystery gift from a mystery person rrighhht.

be off now for the homework. ja!

a_sstarhh @ 2007-05-10T18:34:00

2007-05-10T10:55:04Z

fuck how sometimes the little things could ruin my life.

okay i might be exaggerating. i came back home, tensed, with agama notes to complete. religious studies do suck like hell.
only reason why is because of the whole stupid education system.

ed system + religious people = *%^$#

seriously. it's not like i have anything against my ustazah or whatever but they get too emotional sometimes. they're nice & prim & proper & calm & patient but once we screw up the only thing that pops into their mind is "oh, they're taking me for granted" & that's when the whole volcano eruption comes in. & that's when we are all considered devils, students who NEVER hand in books on time & just irresponsible. & shit, livejournal got jammed halfway as i wrote that ahah. i think i should be a little nice from now on though, it's not like i'm rebellious or anything but i just like being able to do anything i want without any restrictions. well, a few, which i've set on my own. which reminds me that, i don't remember the last time i had clean nails without nail polish. okay let's see, nail polish = can't pray, nail polish = water doesn't reach skin/nails = not pure/holy. my ustazah would kill me if she knows. so maybe i am after all a devil but i was a religious freak when i was in primary 4, a bitch when i was in primary 5, a pretend to be religious yet a bitch in primary 6, a sore loser in secondary 1, a kid in secondary 2, a "i pray only when i need tremendous help" last year, & this year, i'm more of a i hate people of my own race person. i'll change hmm

i am quite frustrated because i am becoming less malay day by day, despite the fact that i speak malay all the time. and i like being all malay & my parents aren't typical malays but they are very malay & i like them. & my chinese indians friends mostly claim that "hah, amal! she's not a malay anymore!" to them, i am japanese or everything mixed together. aihh.

whatever. i'm screwed & messed up. period.

a_sstarhh @ 2007-05-07T12:28:00

2007-05-07T04:28:30Z

lalalaa i havent blogged for long ^^

a_sstarhh @ 2007-05-07T12:25:00

2007-05-07T04:26:23Z

lala I AM SICK AS MADDDDD. uurrgh :(

the only i thing i had was a few cups of tea & water & i still puked everything out -.-"

uurrgh.

a_sstarhh @ 2007-04-29T22:26:00

2007-04-29T14:34:20Z

today i went to malay mail's big walk &walked for 7 kilometres ^^ wow.
& i didn't even feel tired, we've done 7kmetres &i actually thought we had only gone through 3.
haha the next thing i know, we were reaching the finishing line YAYY
it was okayy ((:

i don't remember the last time i blogged :S
but that doesn't mean t has been ages since i've last logged in here, because i've been online here more than i usually am on myspace, looking for bargains on JE items.

i got hold of a yamapi clearfile from their spring concert of which i shall pay tommorow via post, which makes me a little paranoid because you can NEVER trust malaysian postmen & simply malaysian workers, never loyal =.="

but i am going straight to the main post office "near" my place to post to money. amni's going to accompany me there, she owes me something after all that bargain & i shall tell her to help me pay for the kat-tun file and drink bottle through pay pal with ma's card because ma listens to her more -.-

but amni's not back yet ne? it's a little late already. i hope she isn't too tired to walk with me tommorow, hmm.

so yeay! if i ever get that pi file i'll be the happiest girl alive HEEE. but i have to study extra hard, exam's on the corner & i have been busy with debates previously so must cope with a lot of stuff ^^

&the only thing telling me to study my ass out is the fact that if i do i will :

- get to go to japan by end of o7
- get to study in japan in future
- get to buy more JE goods online
- get a new phone
-get to go to kino and splurge more often

&THAT IS IT.

so i will be carrying my lazy bomboms now to studyy. ganbatte ne?

jaa!

a_sstarhh @ 2007-04-15T21:29:00

2007-04-13T14:33:11Z

i don't know why but i am suddenly thinking of pi marrying some girl & that would make me so devastated i might want to die. seriously.

i have always wanted to stay unmarried all my life but somehow i am going nuts HAHAHA &its weird because he is JUST a popstar.

so marrying pi would be way too much of a goal. although i can't find a reason why it's impossible.
so i've decided to make "meeting pi" as one of my goals & talking to him as another one HEHEH ((:

a_sstarhh @ 2007-04-09T17:34:00

2007-04-09T10:17:38Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PI CHANN!

YAMAPI TURNS 22 TODAYYY :D :D :D

okay, i think this would be enough.

yamapi's growing old nee, hmm (:

time flies so fast :S
nyiahh, i am starting to think i like him too much, & somehow i actually think of him as just some other random guy i have a crush on &there is a huge chance of us being together. sucks -.- I SOUND PATHETIC YIAAAH. huge loser pffft :B

i just hope when he gets married one day, i won't become one of those miserable fans, feeling like it's the end of everything. but i have no doubt that i might end up as one of those fans. ahhh :(

i am soo bloody pathetic.

a_sstarhh @ 2007-04-07T21:46:00

2007-04-07T13:47:43Z

& i saw haikal dude, he was a MAJOR hottie MAYNNN. nice body but he was short. a little taller than i am. &he looked scruffy. but he's hot

HEHEHEHEHEHHEHEEEEEEEEEEEEE

a_sstarhh @ 2007-04-07T21:03:00

2007-04-07T13:45:52Z

i woke up with terrible gastric pain. &i am still having it now. it hurts like shittttt. anywayss, we went to HELP institution today for the debate course, mock debate &to draw lots.

we arrived late, thanks to me <<-- according to Jill.

so we didn't get a seat in the auditorium, we were stuck with some other losers at another room full of chairs & we watched the course through a projector & some kids' asses kept blocking the camera so it sucked. after tea break, we met up with angeline, whom we knew from taylor's debate course, she's from WMS. &i forgot his name from seaport, the flamboyant boyy, nyiahaha. so we went into the auditorium &sat on an empty seat behind angeline. but then a coupel of girls claimed those seat were theirs and Jill gave in =.=

so we sat infront of angeline, on empty seats, because angeline said the guys who initially sat there was at some other place. &she said i get to sit beside this malay hottie (which turned out quite ugly to me =.=), but then again, i am never attracted to malays. but then a couple of students claimed the seat were theirs &i pretended to be clueless &one of the girls asked if there were files on the seat, i said no. &apaprently the "hot" malay guys were supposed to put files onto the seats so people would know it is occupied but he didn't &the girl said it is all his fault, &this fair huge indian guy said it is okay. i told him, to make things fair, we will both help each other bring in seats from outside & then we could all have seats but he said it's okay. &the "hot" malay looked pissed & clueless & malas nak layan kindof face. so Jill was quite pissed at me because she felt guilty, but then again they were empty seats. too badlah. the malay so called hottie and his friend ended up sitting on flights of stairs.

we watched a mock debate between seafield and DJ. DJ was really good. Seafield was terrible. Jill said it would be tough if we go against DJ, but i don't think so.

then i started talking to the guy beside me, Jag aka Homo, according to his friend Felix which i thought was cute earlier ^.^ i think the conversation started when he asked me what we were goign to do, &i said draw lots & he thought it was a lucky draw =.= then we drew lots &i drew for our school. we got government side, going against SMK SG BULOH, with the topic which has something to do with believing we should be thought in english at school. the guy beside me, according to his friend (the huge fair indian) said it was impossible to lose, :D the guy beside him, which was a chinese guy , which i thought was cute earlier, said it too. so yay!
then i had a long chitchat with those two guys.

he asked me what i was &i said i was the 2nd speaker blahblah, &i asked him what he was, apparently they were both form 3s &they were shocked to know we were form 4s &Jag asked if we took steroids -.- so they asked me if i were to go to UIA &i said no, we're sending the juniors for it. the chinese guy seemed so excited about it because he said it would be fun blabla. boyss =.= then Jag asked me if we had boys speaking in the team &i said we were an all girls' school, &he muttered lesbians =.= &felix, the chinese guy got excited & was asking me seriously if there were any. &the Felix dude couldn't stop talking about how boring it is without boys.

after 5 minutes of lesbian & gay talking, only did the felix guy ask for names &i asked for names, but Jillian was entirely pissed about the whole lesbian thing &she really liked being in an all girls' school, i didn't so i told the guys it is fun, yet boring because everything is so dull & i am getting sick of bitches. &they asked about uniforms so apparently the chairs there were maroon, exactly like our school's prefect team &Jag asked if we were all blind people. &i said our school is even painted purple &felix said his favourite colour is purple & pink o.o"

OHH &that Jag dude thought i was a chinese so i was really happy & i told him that was a HUGE compliment to me, & i don't know how the conversation got from there to me telling them i only like chinese boys & Jill only likes Malay boys, &Jag said we should have a fun marriage, one chinese wedding one malay wedding. &Jag said it was weird, &he said he had feelings for indian boys too =.= i laughed my ass off &showed him a really dark indian guy which i said i could help bring togetehr with him &he complained about that dude being too dark he can't even see his eyes HAHAH &then he said he hated Machas. &from there it went to Boyans &Kiasus, &i told them about Kuen Cheng &they said it is very typical chinese, &apparently that felix dude hates chinese schools and thinks they suck too. &felix asked me if i ever considered going into a boy-girl school &duhh, i said YES. hahaa, &i told them about sofia being in the same school after telling them her name he asked for fia's class i said, duhh i don't know then he asked if she was hot, &i was so close to saying no, but halfway i said i don't know, to me all girls are the same &that got them babbling about how that is possible since i see girls all the time. &he asked how it was without boys &Jill said it is alright &it is better if you are from a grils' school &you come attend this courses & i thought taht was a weird statement because that got Jag saying something about having chocolate cake only once a month, &you would never forget the taste of it, &felix &him being chocolate cakes =.= & i told them about BB DU DJ VI guys often coming to our school.

&they told me abotu thsi incident where one guy from their school dressed up as a girl with baju kruung & all &went into the girls' loo HAHAHAH &everyone suspected it was Jag because he wasn't present that day &Jag said if it was him no one would fine out because of his "nice" curves HAHAHAHA

&then they introduced us to their friend, Danielle, which i didn't quite enjoyed talking to because she had a strange accent. but we talked for not more than a minute then she went away &more of talking to those two dudes. &it ended just like that because Jill was pissing me off telling me we have to go now, because she is afraid her father might get lost on the way there =.= so i said byebye see you &we when outside.

&i saw the hottie whom i have been keeping an eye on initially. he was a MAJOR hottie. and ipod stuck to his school belt. school uniform with blazers, malay matsalleh looking boy. with braces :) nice hair style, not so tall though. but then it was teh end of the see saw thing. i also spotted a couple of hot indians there nyiahahah, okay this would be it for now. my gastric juices are killing me &i ahven't eaten much today. so byebye!

a_sstarhh @ 2007-04-03T20:21:00

2007-04-03T12:37:26Z

i dont remember the last time i updated.
must be after the debates.
was busy during the weekends.
saturday, went to du's place for tokbah &tokmak's 50th anniversary &they had a custom made 3 tiered cake. SUPER HUGE. &it was sweet because tok bah was SOOOOO excited. then we took family photos, but there was one with tok bah leaping up from his chair, moving sideways with his face like this --> :O
because manchaster united scored a goal =.=

tokbah blowed the candles on the cake &tok mak pretended there were invisible candles with a sarcastic look on her face. HAHA i know she hates it when tok bah acts all controlly &they are sometimes like kids :P but i love theeemm hehehe.

so we had barbecue and satay.
i didn't take beef because i didn't like it. i had grilled squid though (:

on sunday, i went to the curve with my family. it was nicee & all. we ate italian food. &i bought this magazine for tiya, initially but i gave it to Amni because it had lee joon ki and some other korean guys amni adored innit. bought colour pencils too. &borders was funny because there was this macho looking pretty hot dude working at the cashier &i somehow acted weird because i waited for the queue this typical malay kampung girl was incharge of instead of his empty cashier beside me. &i even enquired things from the girl who was busy talking with someone despite him being there &he thought i was weird too because he stared &i swear i saw him lift a brow HAHAHA. well he somehow annoyed me with the whole "i look cool & macho, i am macho" look so i pretended that he ddint exists which i bet doesnt happen to him alot, but he needs a taste of it :P

but well, in the end i did smile &say thanks to him when he helped my brother at the cashier =.=

&then we went back home :D

today, i went to ira's place before sports practice and we planned on detoxicating our body. but we ate two plates f rice & later on ira wnated to grab a drink form the shop lots nearby so faiqa ira and i went there and we bought TONNES of junk food. a huge cadbury bar, biscuits, chipsmore, pepsi, crackers 0.O

it was crazy man, we even packed for school. walked back to school with them. had aerobics. dad couldnt pick me up, he had an urgent last minute notice meeting so i had to go back hom by bus, which arrives at 6.45 but alysha kept me accompanied. so before ira went home we ate the stuff we brought. &then i chatted with alysha. &we went home.

arrived home &i saw shoes at the front door. working shoes. so i thoguht daddy was home but apparently he wasn't. it was hannif's shoes i saw. hannif is our distant relative, last year he came to our place with his husband but he got divorced from him not long ago so i guess his single back again. people claim that he is a gay who doesnt speak english yet gets married to an australian who only speaks english. hannif speaks terabur english but he is VERY confident when he speaks.

so we had dinner as usual last night, &mum said people are coming by our place this weekend &i have my prize giving ceremony of which ma is supposed to attend & she said she might not be able to and she said maybe its okay for me if she compensates and i asked her for cash and i got 200 ringgit. but kira's parents won't be there too so i won't be alone as i have kira and 200bucks by my side.

i am such a loser when it comes to money. aih. more yamapi junkies for me then! ciao!

a_sstarhh @ 2007-03-30T15:09:00

2007-03-30T07:10:26Z

okay, we lost the debate &i feel somehow bad because i admit that i sortof ran away from the team because the topic was tough so i decided to skip it, gl loser takut kalah NYAHAHAHAHA

whtvr, we've got kdu &help ones to think about. ciiiaoo

a_sstarhh @ 2007-03-25T11:06:00

2007-03-25T03:07:18Z

wwaait, i realised i havent mention my new found addicton = miyavi :D

he remind sme of gackt, but a less hotter version &younger version of him, &he can sing WAYY BETTER.

gack't still a hottie to me though, nyiahaa

a_sstarhh @ 2007-03-25T10:59:00

2007-03-25T03:00:55Z

i just got a listen of newS' latest songs in their single hoshi wo meza shite, 4 songs altogether, &they sound muchoo better than last time, they're all gron up now :"( NYAHAHAHA (: <33 ciaaooo

a_sstarhh @ 2007-03-25T02:25:00

2007-03-24T18:29:26Z

i sprained my foot :(
we were at my uncle's place &i was getting out of the car &i tripped because of the un even surface, &there goes my foot =.=

can't walk as well, klcc tommorow is not too sure for now :(

&now i'm putting heat rub onto my feet &it hurts :(

but if i don't do this now, my leg would be swollen tommorow &there goes klcc.

myojo potato wink up, all of them, no chance me of getting a hand of em if i couldnt walk tommorow.

but i will walk ne :D

oyasumiii

a_sstarhh @ 2007-03-23T15:11:00

2007-03-24T07:12:32Z

friday night is party night, right.
went of to rasta with tokcik &aunty lina. wouldn't want to say more. did i mention amni losing my camera &her handphoen two days ago? well she did. bye.